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Why isn’t it Friday yet?

Thursday, May 15, 2008 | 2:28 pm

I’ve been in a funk for about a month now - maybe longer.  Been trying to figure out Why these last few days, and decided just a bit ago to look at my blog archives to when Ms Munchkin was the age the Senor Munchkin is now - and BAM! there it is, in June/July 2006:  SLEEP DEPRIVATION.

I have not had a good night’s sleep since October 2007.  Except for that one night about five weeks ago, but that really doesn’t count because it was only six hours.  I’m talking good night’s sleep as in a full EIGHT hours.

So what’s going on that’s keeping me from sleeping:  Teeth.  Again.  Both kids.  Caia’s getting molars, and Clive is just drooley all over with a first tooth (which I can’t feel any cutting-through for yet).  But neither kid is sleeping well.

On top of that:

1. Work is getting less-than-stellar reviews lately; something about not having defined deliverables.  I still like the work - I just want defined projects.  With deadlines.
2. House maintenance - getting a new roof next week.
3. Yard maintenance - planning a landscape this month.
4. Financing - refinanced the house over the past month; closes/finances tomorrow.
5. Housework - finally decided how to arrange the livingroom so that it’s fully kid-proof, TV-free, and easy for me to work in while watching and playing with the kids.

I can’t help but think that homeownership is causing most of my stress these days.  But I’m probably in some form of denial about the two toddlers that live with me - the house does make them easier to manage, after a fashion.

Maybe - just maybe - the market will turn, houses will be more in-demand than not, I’ll be able to sell this place sooner rather than later, and we can all go live in a nice roomy loft next to a wonderful park someplace close to work, and the kids will be tolerant of long car-rides, so we could take a couple weeks off here & there to go to our [currently imaginary] beach house and enjoy the sand and the waves and the sun and the stars.

Also, I admit defeat in the “virtual knitting” category.  When I found out how much it was going to cost to have the roof replaced, I bought some Socks That Rock lightweight.  Instant gratification that felt amazingly relaxing.  And then I got another bid on the roof that was much more reasonable.  (I blame the yarn.)

—the AMPED one | no comments
(posted in parenting, plutonium)

Exciting new post!

Thursday, May 8, 2008 | 12:48 pm

Okay - not really all *that* exciting.  I’ve been up since 3am and am trying my darndest to not fall asleep at the computer.  Mostly because I’m still working on work stuff (from home), but also because I have no other time to do the work stuff that I’m working on.

Yeah, that’s about it.  Exciting.  Didn’t I tell ya?

Also - current loves:
Ravelry.com
Socks That Rock
Angie’s List
my iPod shuffle (I call itTruffle) (original, I know.)
babies that sit up by themselves and squeal with glee at their big sisters, who squeal right back at them
getting to stay home with the babes for Mother’s Day
designing a nice, low-maintenance yardscape
the thought of getting some of my house projects *finished*
another thought - getting more of my professional (FAP) reading finished, so I can get a bit of that monkey off my back.  a little at a time.

current questions:
why won’t adobe reader install on my wiped-clean desktop?

That is all.

—the AMPED one | 1 comment
(posted in plutonium)

A good reason to blog:

Thursday, April 17, 2008 | 8:54 am

I can look back at what I blogged a couple weeks ago and remember that thought I had about a gazebo.  I’m liking the idea.  The one about the gazebo.

As a catch-up:

1. We’re waiting on a bid from that first contractor.  I’d asked him to price out four or five different things, so I’m not really expecting to hear back from him for another few days, at least.
2. Had the yard ripped out.  Everything but the grass and a couple rhodies and my hydrangea.  Looks open.  And free.  And naked.
3. Ordered some new plants for the yard - native wild blueberries and huckleberries, as well as some lingonberries.  The lingonberries are really small plants, so they’ll be containered to live on my front porch, once it’s built.
4. Having another contractor coming out this weekend to start another bid - not so much stuff for this one, I just want to get another take on front & back porches.  Figuring that we can actually help out with these, and make them a bit more elaborate for not so much as a full-service contractor would charge.

Thoughts on being a stay-at-home-mom:  I’d go crazy.  So I’m trying to make the most of this life I have, as it is.

On the career front:  I’m been studying.  I’m very very close to attaining credentials in this “chosen” path of mine, and with staying at home -not- being the best option for me, I’m going forward with it.  For now.  It’ll take at a year, minimum, to get those credentials, but then I can earn more, do funner work, and not feel guilty about not having those credentials.

Bloghood (I just emailed some thoughts on this to May):  Thinking about ditching my archives.  Or maybe just storing them on my local drive so that I can reference them when I need to, and just having my current, active (or recently finished) projects out in the open for everyone to see.  Like the home improvement posts, and kid-education posts. 

I dunno.  Anyone really want to read about gardening native plants and turning a suburban house into a toddler- and nerd-nurturing home?

—the AMPED one | no comments
(posted in bloghood, parenting, plutonium, suburban garden)

Wednesday, April 2, 2008 | 2:18 pm

I love that some people regularly call me ’superhero’.  It makes me feel both acknowledged and accepted. 

Also, my finance lady?  She rocks. 

—the AMPED one | 1 comment
(posted in plutonium, silly things)

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